The chillin date
I showed up to my movie date half asleep, fighting a cold, hardly any makeup on and comfy clothes. It’s been such a long week -working forty-one hours at the pub, while trying to date, see two concerts, go to my friend’s going away party, catch up with girlfriends and blog every day. My body was not happy with me and starting to shut down.
I was late and disheveled when I showed up. I was falling asleep on my feet. The Suit was a perfect gentleman, as always, and took care of me from the minute we met up. He already had the movie tickets bought, guided me to the theatre, where I sat down and he went and got us popcorn, Junior mints and a big Icee. The Suit said I could fall asleep during the movie, if I wanted – that he would be ok with that. Bridesmaids was the perfect choice, as it revived me with its gross-out humour mixed with romantic comedy/girlfriend comedy moments.
After the film, he bought us iced coffees and he walked me down to King Street, where we sat on some covered steps (it was raining by then) and talked about dating and the blog (he’s an avid reader). We talked about how I was feeling, and I vented a little about some of the things going on that are driving me crazy. It was absolutely the perfect date for how I was feeling and I thank him so much for making me feel better from start to finish.
How am I feeling?
I am pretty sick of dating at the moment. It’s not that the dates aren’t good, or that I’m not having a good time while I’m on them, but it’s the planning and trying to fit it all into my life and work schedule. And there’s a lot of drama involved – emotions are there. I just want some time to myself to assess how I’m feeling and to fight off this cold that keeps trying to surface (I am not letting it!).
The other day while I was on the streetcar, I wrote a bit about my mental state:
“The more I date, the less I want to date. Not just the less I want to go on dates, but also the less I want to be in a relationship. I went into this month wanting to find a partner, and I leave not wanting anything serious from anyone. Am I not ready to be in a relationship? Or have I just not found the right person? I do miss the intimacy of being with one partner and developing a relationship, but I’m very confused. How can there be so many awesome guys and yet I don’t want to date? Dating has almost lost it’s excitement. It’s become normal and routine.”
I’m a little more positive now than I was those few days ago when I wrote this, but it’s important to show my ups and downs throughout this experience. Time and rest will put a better perspective on how I feel about my month and want I really want, and I can’t wait for June 1st to arrive (31 dates ends with my 31st birthday).
Another set-up by a friend, with an Aussie! I’m actually looking forward to this one, despite the fact that he asked my friend whether I would pay…